Suzzane's Diary for Nicholas

just finished reading "Suzzane's Diary for Nicholas"..

That book has been left unattended for months. But i got a feeling just around 10pm last night, i need to read it. I saw it on the computer table in our living room, i asked my sister if that was new. She said in reply "No. I told you to read that before but you never did." I grabbed the book, i turned off my computer and jumped on my bed, and i started reading. I didn't turn the tv off, coz if i might find the book boring, i can still watch tv. But then, it was a good book and didn't notice that i'm already done reading by 12am today.

I didn't realized that tiny droplets of water started to drip from the corner of my eyes while reading that book. As I continue reading, I gave myself some pauses, few seconds to ponder upon the story and the lessons behind it. The diary may look a little simple but it is indeed full of joy and pain, full of thoughts about life, and about love lost and found.

I pay attention to every lesson that Suzanne wrote for Nicholas. And this one struck me the most:

"Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends and integrity. And you're keeping all of them in the air. But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other four balls - family, health, friends and integrity - are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truly understand the lesson of the five balls, you will have the begginings of balance in your life."

Recently, I prayed to God and told Him that I'm willing to sacrifice something just to give me the job that I want. I'm starting to like my job right now, but I don't think it's not enough. Coz I know I deserve more. But then, the book changed my mind. No, work isn't that important, and if there is a need to sacrifice anything, it's the ball called "work" and nothing else.

"Bad stuff does happen sometimes, Nicholas. Always remember that, but remember that you have to move on somehow. You just pick your head up and stare at something beautiful like the sky or the ocean, and you move the hell on." - I do agree with this! Just like how good things can happen, bad things may happen too. I think it's okay to cry for a while. It's normal. But we have to move on and that's all, we don't have to forget.

We don't have to forget. Most important is not to forget all the good memories that life has given us. Coz.. Good memories are like charms and each memory is special. We have to collect them one by one, until one day we look back and discover that they make a long, colorful bracelet. Yes, it's true. Few days ago, I've been spending quality time with my mom and I've been telling her stories about what have happened during the past when i was still a little kid until those memories I made recently. My mom was amazed that I can still remember every detail, even though some had happened more than 15 years ago. Whether happy memories or sad, I told my mom everything I remembered, everything I felt. It was good. I realized today how wonderful the bracelet I've made!

"Life doesn't go on forever. Enjoy every moment of it."

That book changed both my mind and heart. And I think, it made me a better person now. ♥

Happy Birthday Grandma! ♥

Happy 75th Birthday to my hottest grandma ever!!

I love you lola!!! :D

My best friend. My hero. My one and only mother.
To the sexiest Mama ever, I wish you a happy birthday!

2009 AWARDS

Your 2009 AWARDS for the following categories goes to:

BUDDY OF THE YEAR
❤ Aiza Crystal Mae Cardona Abdul!❤

LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend)
❤ Christine Angelique Bisquera ❤

NEWCOMER AWARD - COOLEST NEWEST FRIEND
☺ Angela Rose Wee ☺
☺ Junos Cadayona ☺

HIGHEST POINT OF THE YEAR

☺ Graduating College XD ☺

LOWEST POINT OF THE YEAR
☺ Entrep and MAS Business Plan *away part* ☺
☺ ojt tardiness ☺
☺ mediocre grades ☺
☺ failing Taxation ☺

BEST HOLIDAY
☺ Christmas and New Year 09 ☺

YOUR SONG FOR 2009
uhh marami eh

Best movie FOR 2009
So far no movie caught my attention yet. 
can't wait for Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince!!! ☺☺☺

WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH AND WHERE
❤ GIRLFRIENDS!!! AISEC impreza and 183 night out XD ❤

WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN
sarili ko XD

RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR
 BANOKS :p

KISS OF THE YEAR
 wala

BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR
uhh  *thinking*

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR
☺ Get a DECENT and HIGH PAYING job and
Earn lotsa lotsa money money money! :D 

MOST STUPID IDEA
 magproceed ng law XD

TV SHOW OF THE YEAR
Bandila

MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)
Aiza Crystal Mae Abdul
Dinah Joy Hong
Katrina Hugos
Kerstine Jan Alba
Leroy Elvin Meneses
Ma Elaine Dy
Marie Therese Sioco
Olga Pagtaconan
Shane Therese Sillarez

HEARTBREAKER OF THE YEAR
 Tax!!! Sir Fuentes!!!

BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR
di na anti-social..dba??? XD

NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION
 make the most of my *twen* teenage life XD

MY NAMES.

List the names that you are called by and name the people that call you by these names.
Tag 10 others to do the same thing
and paste the link on their guestbooks.
April
- almost everyone who knows me.
Pril
- family, close friends
Bimbim
- Papa
Tita
-Mama, Mommy Maimai, Tita Gel
Tita Pen
-Charmelle
Melodee
- some classmates, some teachers
Met
- si met. :p Leerz
April Melodee
- si Shane Therese
Concubine (dati lang hahaha)
- si Aiza
Ape (hahaha hampanget)
- classmates na feeling close
Bisquera
-some teachers
Miss April
-kaibigan ko dati
Te Pril
-Mga friends ni Charmelle na nakikinood ng cartoons
Ate April
-mga pinsans and friends na mas bata

Getting busy!

busy as a beeeee!

I love OJT! Makes me feel the rush everyday.

-Waking up on 6am to prepare,

-travel for an hour which includes being stuck on traffic.

-be on pldt on 8am, *supposed to be 8am, but for my case 8:10! hay tardiness, my bad habit!*

-work up to 12noon,

-then attend classes up to 9pm. Sounds really busy, right?

Upon reaching home, feeling hungry, exhausted, and soooo tired.
Well, aside from the ‘rush’ that i love so much, another reason why i love OJT is because of my OJT uniform! I reallllly really loveeee iiit!!! XD It doesn’t make me look like a first year student. :p I look soo ‘dalaga’ yey!!! I’m certifiably a sooo 4th year student!  Hangsaya!!!

Waiiiit!! I need to include here the things why I HATE  OJT! Aside from the exhausting feeling everyday, the hills, the bag, my wednesday outfit and demerits!!!

Hmmp! I can no longer wear my fave shoes and my fave hotpink emo messenger bag! =c I still wanna wear my old shoes but they say it’s bawal!!! 

The Strange Thing About Love

The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster, and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh and then cry. The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love.

The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and the strange thing about love is that it is always there somewhere in your life. The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true, and the strange thing about love is that, even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.

Love is strange, isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right. :)

GIRLS RULE!

"The most important ingredient for success is failure." I heard Billy Ray Cyrus say that for her daughter Miley on OPRAH today. In addition, he also said that "Every time you fail, you eliminate one way that won't work and therefore being one way closer to the one that will."

Yea. That's a quote that could make me see life positively. Oh well. But it is really true, right? We learn from the mistakes that we make. If we fail, we increase the possibilities of success. Everyone fears failure but the best thing for us to do is to embrace our mistakes and learn from them.

Sometimes quitting is just understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly.

"In your time, you have accomplished some nearly impossible tasks — so if today you can’t quite swing a home run, do not beat yourself up about it. You have done all that you can for now, and it might be time to take a break from climbing this particular mountain. Enjoy the view — and consider turning back if you think you just don’t have the energy or inspiration you need. Do not think of it as quitting. Think of it as understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly."


Yea. We need to move forward. The world is open for all of our dreams. It may take us quite some time to see the end of the tunnel but surely we'll get there.

It's time for me to go..

Inside an imaginary space

only two people knew.

I was asked to stay.

I promised not to go.

But the darkness has completely subdue.

My shadow has now gone away.

Where did our spark go?

No more magic, no more light.

No more bittersweet time.

Never really knew that I’m alone.

Was everything just my imagination?

Colors turned black and gray.

I don’t wanna longer stay.

=c

-aprilmelodee-

09/30/08

PARA SA AKIN ANG TULANG YAN?!!

Oiiii! kinikilig!! *giggles*
Ay, may ganon? haha! XD

Last wednesday, I saw a piece of paper on my desk on my philo106 class.
and there is a little poem written on it.


“Such a feeling is coming
There is wonder….
Everything I want
Is coming true…
And the reason is clear
It’s because you are here.”

Ohhh! Hahaha!
PARA SA AKIN KAYA YAN?
Anyways, para sa akin man or hindi, still, I’ll keep that piece of paper on my everything nice box. =)
Hay… *kinikilig* LOL! XDD