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After a year of being a graduate of management accounting, i am planning to go back to schooling again and try to finish another course.. I miss school. I miss having classmates. I miss the feeling of time pressure during exams. I miss getting busy.


I have my work now, but it's quite different.. I don't get busy much. I'm not time pressured. Actually, i'm really bored. I feel like i'm stuck with a routine. Wake up by 7, work up to 5, go home, sit in front of comp to play, eat dinner, sleep, then wake up and go to work again. I want something new. I want something different. I want to explore new things. I want to achieve more. I want to meet new people. i want to meet people of almost the same age as i am..


I'm actually confused of what course to take. It's either taking up masters in business administration, or proceed to accountancy or take up law. Three options. But i'm a little doubtful with taking up law. Though papa is a law graduate, he can help me with that, still i am not sure with it. Masteral and accountancy are the sure options.


My college best friend aiza is taking up her masters right now in um, but, personally, i'd like to take accountancy more than masters. Besides, mama wants me to choose accountancy..so i think that would be a better choice.

BROKEN FRIENDSHIP

People say, "When someone takes you for granted and leaves, it's their loss, not yours." Maybe yes, i do agree. So okay, if you really wanna leave, then you can. I'll still remember you though, just like I remember everyone that leaves. And I'll still remember too, that bittersweet friendship you've once shared with me.

I'm just a little disappointed coz I really thought our friendship was real. I thought you are one of those people who can accept me for who i am, no ifs, no buts. But then it's just so weird and sudden, you're now acting differently. Like you're back to being a stranger once again.

Maybe, you've unveiled your real self now. So, this is the real you. And that real you just can't accept me for being who i am. So, okay, that's alright. I guess, 'goodbye' is the right word to say, coz I can no longer stay.

com.pli.ca.ted.

I miss the way things used to be. But sometimes, some things are just not meant to be.... Some.times.things.just.get.com.pli.ca.ted. Sometimes, things don't go the way we wanted it to be. No matter how hard we try to make things alright, sometimes some things just can't go right.

God has His own reasons. I will no longer ask why. ♥

The Strange Thing About LOVE. ♥

The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster, and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh and then cry. The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love. *aww*

The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and the strange thing about love is that it is always there somewhere in your life. The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true, and the strange thing about love is that, even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.

Love is strange, isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right. :)

One Sided Love. ♥

No complications, no attachments, no commitments. I guess this idea of one-sided love is perfect for me. Having him see me as a friend or as a little sister is good enough. Besides, if ever he loves me back, our love will only ruin his plans.. and i don't wanna let it happen.. So I'd rather stay in this corner and watch him leave.. Hoping that sooner in time this feeling would fade away as well.

The Big Box.

I am afraid of the future, coz I am never certain of what awaits me whenever I get there. It seems to be like a big box waiting for me and I never know what's inside. It's like pieces of jigsaw puzzle, scattered around, still being completed by me. Or like an unfinished painting, that sooner I may call my very own masterpiece.

We always talk about the future. It is something to be anticipated. It is future, every time a 5-yr old boy talks about his dreams and the things he wants to do when he gets older.. Or when a teenage girl patiently waits for that one special boy whose spaces between his fingers fit hers perfectly..

The thing we call future, soon to be present, sooner will become the past. Yes, definitely, I am afraid of the future. I never know what it's like. Will it be the same as what I often wish for? I hope so. :)

Chocolate Love~

Yes, I'm 21 years old, too young to get married or to find that one true love, yet too old for that so-called puppy love. I've been in this world for 21 years yet up to this time, I've never been in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with anyone, never been in that one sweet first kiss, never been in my very own fairy tale love story.

It will be a lie if I say there's no one who tried to get my attention. There are quite some, who dared to start, yet I just simply ignored and then eventually they'll stop. So I'd rather say, no one has ever started, they just dared to start, that's it, no one has ever courted me.

I admit, it's my fault though, since there's something in me that tries to block boys whenever they try to get close, even if I say I'd love to try, there is just something inside of me that doesn't want to.

I won't say I've never been inlove though, coz it is simply not true. As I've always said, I'm inlove with the concept of love. I so love the idea itself. Love itself. Concepts of love I took from novels I've read, movies I've seen or from music I've heard. And there are plenty of times that I've created my own idea of love too. There are quite sometimes that I've formed a fairy-tale love story inside my mind, some with tragic end and some with an "and they lived happily ever after" ending.

It is just so weird how I think I understand the concept of love so much yet I've never encountered such an intimate kind of love before. I see another simple reason, aside from the concepts of love I've read, seen and heard, it might be also because a lot of people love me, my family, friends, random people whom I knew, my dog, including myself too and even those strangers who show they care. It might not be an intimate kind of love but still, it is the same love.

Yes, I'm 21 years old, might be too old for that so-called puppy love but still young to find that one true love. Sooner, in time, I know I will be able to encounter that too. I'm not waiting for it to happen, instead I am making the most of my immature life, who doesn't want to fall in that one true love yet. ♡ ♡ ♡

"aprilmelodee's ways to cope up with stress"

Start your day with a prayer. Eat Breakfast. Create a "to do" list. Smile often. Give Hugs. Think positively. Avoid negative people. Stop thinking about a better tomorrow. Start a better TODAY. Stop worrying. Smile at a stranger. Stand up & stretch. Get ready for the rain. Always bear in mind that there's a solution for every problem. Don't let other people pull you down. Avoid comparing yourself with others. Check yourself in the mirror often. Create your own exercise. Create a new doodle. Make other people smile. Be inspired. :)

Who needs a boyfriend?

I DON'T NEED A BOYFRIEND!! coz I've got my GIRLFRIENDS!! ^_^

When we get together, the fun never ends!! ^_^

things happen for a reason... just believe ♥

Time goes, never stops, it runs, and life goes on.

It has been three months since the last time we had a direct talk. Three months of still wishing, dreaming and thinking. I am not afraid to tell you that I love you coz I know you feel the same way too. But this is not yet our time.....

I'm sorry for I still get sad every time I miss you. Though, you told me to just close my eyes and feel your presence.. It's no more enough..

When am I going to see you again? I really want to see you yet I am truly, incredibly afraid of what will happen then :( coz I don't wanna get hurt or others to get hurt..

I try my very best to move on, but it's taking me a hard time.. maybe it's because our love story has never come to an end yet, our love story still continues and goes on...

Time runs, life goes on, but only one thing stays the same: memory. Our bittersweet memories that I've collected since then - forever I will treasure.♥

---this is not about me, okay? i wrote this simply because I'm inspired to write about certain things that time. simply created by my imaginative mind, no more, no less. ;)