Getting busy!

busy as a beeeee!

I love OJT! Makes me feel the rush everyday.

-Waking up on 6am to prepare,

-travel for an hour which includes being stuck on traffic.

-be on pldt on 8am, *supposed to be 8am, but for my case 8:10! hay tardiness, my bad habit!*

-work up to 12noon,

-then attend classes up to 9pm. Sounds really busy, right?

Upon reaching home, feeling hungry, exhausted, and soooo tired.
Well, aside from the ‘rush’ that i love so much, another reason why i love OJT is because of my OJT uniform! I reallllly really loveeee iiit!!! XD It doesn’t make me look like a first year student. :p I look soo ‘dalaga’ yey!!! I’m certifiably a sooo 4th year student!  Hangsaya!!!

Waiiiit!! I need to include here the things why I HATE  OJT! Aside from the exhausting feeling everyday, the hills, the bag, my wednesday outfit and demerits!!!

Hmmp! I can no longer wear my fave shoes and my fave hotpink emo messenger bag! =c I still wanna wear my old shoes but they say it’s bawal!!! 

The Strange Thing About Love

The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster, and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh and then cry. The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love.

The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and the strange thing about love is that it is always there somewhere in your life. The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true, and the strange thing about love is that, even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.

Love is strange, isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right. :)

GIRLS RULE!

"The most important ingredient for success is failure." I heard Billy Ray Cyrus say that for her daughter Miley on OPRAH today. In addition, he also said that "Every time you fail, you eliminate one way that won't work and therefore being one way closer to the one that will."

Yea. That's a quote that could make me see life positively. Oh well. But it is really true, right? We learn from the mistakes that we make. If we fail, we increase the possibilities of success. Everyone fears failure but the best thing for us to do is to embrace our mistakes and learn from them.

Sometimes quitting is just understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly.

"In your time, you have accomplished some nearly impossible tasks — so if today you can’t quite swing a home run, do not beat yourself up about it. You have done all that you can for now, and it might be time to take a break from climbing this particular mountain. Enjoy the view — and consider turning back if you think you just don’t have the energy or inspiration you need. Do not think of it as quitting. Think of it as understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly."


Yea. We need to move forward. The world is open for all of our dreams. It may take us quite some time to see the end of the tunnel but surely we'll get there.

It's time for me to go..

Inside an imaginary space

only two people knew.

I was asked to stay.

I promised not to go.

But the darkness has completely subdue.

My shadow has now gone away.

Where did our spark go?

No more magic, no more light.

No more bittersweet time.

Never really knew that I’m alone.

Was everything just my imagination?

Colors turned black and gray.

I don’t wanna longer stay.

=c

-aprilmelodee-

09/30/08

PARA SA AKIN ANG TULANG YAN?!!

Oiiii! kinikilig!! *giggles*
Ay, may ganon? haha! XD

Last wednesday, I saw a piece of paper on my desk on my philo106 class.
and there is a little poem written on it.


“Such a feeling is coming
There is wonder….
Everything I want
Is coming true…
And the reason is clear
It’s because you are here.”

Ohhh! Hahaha!
PARA SA AKIN KAYA YAN?
Anyways, para sa akin man or hindi, still, I’ll keep that piece of paper on my everything nice box. =)
Hay… *kinikilig* LOL! XDD

BAKIT BA AKO SINGLE??

Got this from Raya's blog. La lng. :p

Destiny Addict

Ito 'yung mga taong hinihintay na gumawa ang tadhana ng paraan para pagtagpuin sila ng kanilang mga "soulmates" and whatever. Ayaw kumilos o kung ano pa dahil naniniwala siya na kung sino man 'yung talagang meant for him/her ay darating na lang bigla sa paraang maaaring hindi niya inaasahan--wow, parang Serendipity.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Dadating din 'yan. 'Wag kasing hanapin!"

Perfectionist

Simula nung magkamalay ang taong ito, nakalista na ang mga bagay na gusto niya sa kanyang magiging boypren/girlpren. Kapag may nakilala siya at nakitang madumi ang kuko, magkadikit ang kilay, may butas sa ngipin, o parang penguin maglakad, wala na. Turn off na 'yun para sa kanya.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Ok na sana siya e. Kaya lang gusto ko 'yung ganito..."

Napaka-superficial naman ng love na yan. Ano ba, true love eradicates imperfections...

Busy Bee

Pasensya na sila pero masyado kang maraming inaasikaso tulad ng libro, bolpen, papel at calculator. Umaalis ka ng 6 am sa bahay at umuuwi ng 7 ng gabi 'pag weekdays. Pagdating mo sa bahay, gagawa lang ng homework at matutulog na. Masaya ka nang makanood ng TV 'pag Sabado (at gumawa ulit ng homework). Sapat na sa'yo ang kumain sa labas kasama ang pamilya 'pag Linggo (at gumawa pa rin ng homework).

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Sorry. Wala akong time sa ganyan e."


Friend Forever version 1

Kunwari ka pa dyan. Alam mo namang gusto mo talaga 'yang best friend o special friend mo pero hindi mo lang sinasabi at pinapadama dahil ayaw mong masira ang pagkakaibigan niyong dalawa. 'Yung tipong 'pag may kasamang iba 'yung gusto mo, kunwari ka pang masaya ka para sa kanya pero sa totoo lang, gusto mo na malusaw na parang ice caps dahil sa Global Warming.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "I'm so happy for you!" o "Sayang naman 'yung pinagsamahan namin e."

Friend Forever version 2

Wala tayong magagawa pero talagang malapit ka lang sa kabilang kasarian--pero bilang kaibigan lang. One-of-the-boys, ladies' man. Hindi ka naman homo o bi pero sadyang kaibigan lang ang tingin mo sa mga taong hindi mo kapareho ng chromosomes. Masaya ka nang nakaka-hang-out lang sila, nakakakwentuhan, niyayakap nang walang halong malisya.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "May inuman ba mamaya?" (kung babae) o "Hatid ko ba kayo mamaya?" (kung lalaki)

Born to be One

Single-blessed ka at wala ka nang magagawa kung ganun. :) Nilikha ka siguro para maging mag-isa (pero syempre may pamilya at kaibigan ka naman, duh) hanggang tumanda ka na at ipadala sa Home for the Aged. Marami akong kakilalang mukhang ganito ang patutunguhan at hindi naman sila mga pangit o abnoy talaga. Minsan lang, masyado silang masungit.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Mag-isa ako."

Happy-go-lucky

'Eto 'yung taong masaya na sa trip-trip lang at kung anu-anong mga happenings. Kahit sino na lang basta no strings attached. For fun lang at walang seryosohan please. Personally, ayoko nung mga ganito. Umaapaw lang siguro 'yung mga taong ganito sa L. Magbuhos ka nalang ng malamig na tubig sa iyong buong katawan at solb na 'yan.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "I'm not ready to commit e, but I really like you."

Wrong Time

'Eto naman 'yung mga laging idinadahilan na masyado pa silang bata o kaya masyado na silang matanda. May mga tao raw na ganyan, 'yung pakiramdam nila laging may tamang panahon para sa pag-ibig. Pero ang labo lang kasi tuwing may pagkakataon naman, lagi nilang naiisip na maling panahon pa iyon. Oo, wrong timing lagi ang pag-ibig para sa kanila kasi madalas sumasakto kung kelan meron silang board exams, problema sa pamilya, o long test kinabukasan. :))

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "We had the right love at the wrong time..."

Parent Trap

Ayaw ni mama o ni papa na magkaboypren/girlpren ang kanilang unica hija/hijo kahit na 22 years old na ito at kumikita na ng sarili niyang pera. Kailangan daw magkaron ka muna ng isang strand ng puting buhok bago may makadalaw sa'yo sa bahay. O kaya, baka ikaw 'yung may problema dahil natatakot ka sa iisipin ng mga magulang mo tungkol sa taong iyong gusto. Baka kasi sabihin nila na masyado siyang bansot/ matangkad/ baboy/ payatot para sa'yo.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Baka kasi magalit si Papa."

Trauma

Dahil sa dami ng mga heartbreak na iyong nadama at emo songs na napakinggan mo na noon, sinumpa mo nang hindi ka magmamahal. Ayaw mo na. Sawa ka na sa paglalaslas ng pulso, este, sa paglalagay ng mga madramang stat message sa YM at pag-iyak ng balde-baldeng luha. Awwwww. >:D< Pwede rin namang masyado kang insecure sa sarili mo kaya hindi ka makapagmatapang na magventure into some love quest.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Pagod na pagod na akong masaktan!" *hikbi*

Your Ex-Lover Is (NOT) Dead

Yikeeee. Mahal pa rin niya ang kanyang ex at hindi siya maka-get-over the person. Boo. Pilit pa ring inaalala ang mga tawanan, iyakan, at PDA moments nilang dalawa kahit 'yung ex niya ay nakikipag-(insert verb here) na sa ibang babae/lalaki. Sasabihin mong nakapag-move on ka na pero pag nagkwentuhan tungkol sa pag-ibig, tandadadaaaaan! Siya na naman naiisip mo.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "I'm over him/her..." *tapos iiyak bigla :))*

Ayaw

Dalawa na namang kaso ito. Una, ayaw mo lang talaga magka-"someone". Hindi ko na pipilitin ungkatin 'yung dahilan pero may mga pagkakataon lang talaga na ayaw mo. Ikalawa naman, baka...ayaw kasi sa'yo nung gusto mo. And that's the shizzest thing ever! Pwedeng ayaw niya sa'yo dahil may girlpren/boypren siya, busy siya or whatever, o kaya ayaw ka lang niya talaga at wala ka nang magagawa kung ganun. :(

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Ayoko pa magkaboypren/girlpren e." o "Hindi naman niya ako gusto."

*****

Pero bakit ba talaga ako single? Eh wala talaga e. :-D

I gotta find you

Every time I think I'm closer to the heart
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, your not that far

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you

CHANGE.

Made some changes on my blogspot blog which might be unnoticeable by people who regularly visit that blog because those posts were dated more than/almost a year ago. Char lng! Feeling! Okay. I know it's just me who visits my blog regularly. lol. Most people visit my blog by accident lol mistakenly clicked the link or maybe out of extreme boredom. lol

Actually, I published some works which were originally saved as drafts about a year ago and deleted some posts because i found out that some of them were corny written by an immature aprilmelodee, lol, considering that aprilmelodee is trying hard to be a mature one lately. :)

I've read a blog post, written last december 8, 2006, almost 2 years ago. Written by me of course. here it goes, quoted below, colored red:

"I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not"

"Someone told me that she hates me because i am this. She said that i'm childish, i easily cry, i'm too shy......
"This is me, this is what i love doing. This is the real me, if you hate me then go away....." This is what i want to say when she was telling me those things. But i haven't said this to her because she is my friend. She just want me to change.
But being me isn't bad. Right? I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.... "

Then another one, written last April 29,2007, more than a year ago. quoted, colored red:

"People judge me..."

"They keep telling things that would hurt me…then they would tend to laugh out loud or even get mad when they see me cry like a baby. Sometimes they give reasons just like that it was just a joke. Or maybe sometimes they tell me that I couldn’t just accept the fact. Bad sila! Why can’t they zip their mouths and stop telling things that would hurt people… why cant they accept me as me?

But mind you, sometimes it is good to listen on what other people say. Just try to reflect on what they have said. Maybe it can hurt a little bit but it would be something great when later you realize that their right. Sometimes, you also need to accept them... (you accept them and then they accept you! eh di mas ok ^_^)

I have tried it once.. and it worked… It made myself a way much better. Except from the fact that it made me better, it also make others happy for the good changes i have made..."

I discovered a change of insights!

2006, I stand my ground. I won't make a change because i believed that being me isn't bad and that I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.

2007, accepted some comments. Made some change. :) Sabi ko pa "sometimes it is good to listen on what other people say. Just try to reflect on what they have said. Maybe it can hurt a little bit but it would be something great when later you realize that their right. Sometimes, you also need to accept them... you accept them and then they accept you! eh di mas ok ^_^"

2008, um. I guess, i've changed, a little bit. That's my new years resolution this year. To change. Maturity. That's a promise. No more crying like a baby. No more shyness. No more "ulaw ko. hiya ako. i'm shy". I guess, i would still be an introvert, but being an introvert and being shy is not the same. Oh. :) Promise to myself, to my sisters who often call me autistic, to my parents who try to build up my confidence and to my friends who help me grow. This is a promise and i do believe that promises are not made to be broken. XD

^_^

At last! I'm in my fourth year in college! I'm a graduating student! *big grin*

Actually, I'm still praying not to fail any subject in my last two sems. Coz if i fail just a single subject, my dream of saying 'bye-bye school' within this school year would be a flop.

Ooowkay. The truth is, I don't really think that i can pass each of my subjects this sem. Ha! Reverse Psychology! LOL! But I'm hoping. :)