I like you but i don't

I like you but i don't like you. I just don't understand.

I just love the conversations that we had. Those soundtrips and small talks and the stories you've shared. I like it when you let me know the things you do.

Those simple good morning and good night messages you've sent. Asking me how's my day, and even how i have spent my weekend, it makes me feel happy that somehow, someone is interested in what i do daily.

The time you had spent with me even if it means going to work without sleep at night.

I feel comfortable sharing my story to you. My problems, my untold emotions and even my deepest secrets. Oh, how I wish i could have someone like you to spend the rest of my life with.

Well, I am looking forward to know you more. I want to know the purpose why we two have met.

I would like to thank you, because without your encouragement, i could never be braver.

• See you in the future, in God's perfect time.

Dear God, Please Don’t Let Me Get Attached To What’s Not Mine

By Rania Naim

Dear God,

Please don’t let me get attached to what’s not meant for me anymore. Don’t let me get attached to something or someone that you plan on taking away from me.

I know your plan is unknown but until you reveal it to me, please make it easier. Don’t let me hold on to what I need to let go of. Don’t let me fight for what I need to release. Do not let me desire what will eventually destroy me. Do not let me love those who will break my heart.

Because I get attached easily and I hold on to things tightly, so please don’t let my mind want things that I can’t handle, don’t let my mind trick me into wanting things I don’t need or things that are not good for me. Please don’t let my heart miss people who don’t miss me. Don’t let my heart long for the ones who left. Don’t let my heart fall in love with someone who doesn’t want to stay.

Please don’t let me get attached to the things that keep me up at night, to people who leave me wondering and to places I’m not meant to live in. Bring me closer to what’s meant for me, let me hold on to those who are meant to stay.

But let me forget about the things that were never meant to be, give me the faith I need to believe that I’m better off without them. Give me the wisdom I need to realize that I deserve so much better and that I’ll be happier somewhere else with somebody else.

Or just give me tolerance I need right now to be okay with not getting the things I want, with not loving the ones I wanted to love and give me the patience I need to wait for your blessings and wait for your gifts.

But for now, please don’t let me get attached to what’s wrong for me. Don’t let me invest so much in things or people I’m bound to lose. Don’t let me want what’s not mine. Don’t let me build a future around what’s temporary.

Missing piece

Confused feelings. Both happy and sad but definitely free.

Sad coz someone whom i am with for 8 years is now seem like a stranger again.

Those bittersweet memories. I was deeply inloved with you back then. You knew that. You felt that. You witnessed how i fought my love for you. But it just seem like i was never the one meant for you.

We never matched. We were not the missing piece in our life puzzle that we first thought we were. 

We tried our best for us to fit that missing piece, but no matter how hard we try, we just failed.

Now, there's no more us. No more trying hard to fit it.

Let's just start over again the journey of finding that missing piece.