Friday, June 27, 2008

change.

Made some changes on my blog which might be unnoticeable by people who regularly visit this blog because those posts were dated more than/almost a year ago. char lng! feeling! okay. i know it's just me who visits my blog regularly. lol. most people visit my blog by accident lol mistakenly clicked the link or maybe out of extreme boredom. lol

Actually, I published some works which were originally saved as drafts about a year ago and deleted some posts because i found out that some of them were corny written by an immature aprilmelodee, lol, considering that aprilmelodee is trying hard to be a mature one lately. :)

I've read a blog post here, written last december 8, 2006, almost 2 years ago. Written by me of course. here it goes, quoted below, colored red:

"I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not"

"Someone told me that she hates me because i am this. She said that i'm childish, i easily cry, i'm too shy......
"This is me, this is what i love doing. This is the real me, if you hate me then go away....." This is what i want to say when she was telling me those things. But i haven't said this to her because she is my friend. She just want me to change.
But being me isn't bad. Right? I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.... "

Then another one, written last April 29,2007, more than a year ago. quoted, colored red:

"People judge me..."

"They keep telling things that would hurt me…then they would tend to laugh out loud or even get mad when they see me cry like a baby. Sometimes they give reasons just like that it was just a joke. Or maybe sometimes they tell me that I couldn’t just accept the fact. Bad sila! Why can’t they zip their mouths and stop telling things that would hurt people… why cant they accept me as me?

But mind you, sometimes it is good to listen on what other people say. Just try to reflect on what they have said. Maybe it can hurt a little bit but it would be something great when later you realize that their right. Sometimes, you also need to accept them... (you accept them and then they accept you! eh di mas ok ^_^)

I have tried it once.. and it worked… It made myself a way much better. Except from the fact that it made me better, it also make others happy for the good changes i have made..."

I discovered a change of insights!

2006, I stand my ground. I won't make a change because i believed that being me isn't bad and that I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.

2007, accepted some comments. made some change. :) sabi ko pa "sometimes it is good to listen on what other people say. Just try to reflect on what they have said. Maybe it can hurt a little bit but it would be something great when later you realize that their right. Sometimes, you also need to accept them... you accept them and then they accept you! eh di mas ok ^_^"

2008, um. i guess, i've changed, a little bit. that's my new years resolution this year. to change. maturity. that's a promise. no more crying like a baby. no more shyness. no more "ulaw ko. hiya ako. i'm shy". i guess, i would still be an introvert. but being an introvert and being shy is not the same. oh. :) promise to myself, to my sisters who often call me autistic, to my parents who try to build up my confidence and to my friends who help me grow. this is a promise and i do believe that promises are not made to be broken. XD

Posted by at 5:37 AM

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

^_^

At last! I'm in my fourth year in college! I'm a graduating student! *big grin*

Actually, I'm still praying not to fail any subject in my last two sems. Coz if i fail just a single subject, my dream of saying 'bye-bye school' within this school year would be a flop.

Ooowkay. The truth is, I don't really think that i can pass each of my subjects this sem. Ha! Reverse Psychology! LOL! But I'm hoping. :)

Posted by at 6:11 AM

Sunday, June 08, 2008

...

the long wait has ended
it came, eighteen years after
until finally, i felt its presence
the best gift i've ever receive

another long year has passed
and up to this very moment
i guess, it has stayed the same.
hope it will never leave.

Posted by at 6:12 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

What April Melodee Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Posted by at 12:47 AM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

10 types of suitors

1. Mr. Gwapings
>> mayaman, gwapo, kilala, at higit sa lahat may wheels. mataas ang confidence nya na hindi sya mababasted, kaya pag nabasted..maapektuhan ng husto ang kanyang EGO. at teyk note, malas mo kung may sour grape attitude pa yan. pwede nyang sabihing “sus kala mo kung sinong maganda e pinagtyatyagaan ko lang naman sya! pwe!”

2. Mr. Quickie
>> ang type ng manliligaw na kada magkikita kayo e wala nang alam na sabihin kundi “kelan mo ba ako sasagutin?” o kaya “i love you na, ako ba hindi mo pa lab?” kahit na isang linggo pa lang naman syang pumoporma. kumbaga dinadaan nya sa pangungulit para mabilis ang pagsagot mo.

3. Mr. Everything
>> linya nya ang “sagutin mo lang ako, ibibigay ko sayo lahat, lahat ng magustuhan mo. kahit ang pa buwan o kaya mundo.”! Tanga ka na pag nagpauto ka. dahil pag sinagot mo na yan, makakalimutan na nya ang linyang yan.

4. Mr. Stalker
>> eto yung type ng manliligaw na pag nagkahiwalay kayo kht sandali, e sisimulan ka sa tanong na “kumain ka na ba?” pagkasagot mo susundan pa nya ulit ng tanong “nasan ka ngayon?” “sinong kasama mo?” “anong ginagawa mo?” at kung anu-ano pa. basta tungkol sa daily activities mo kelangan malaman nya. every detail.

5. Mr. Take it or leave it
>> pag binasted mo ang ganitong type ng manliligaw, asahan mo bukas may nililigawan na sya ulit. at heto pa, hinding hindi ka na nya papansinin. period.

6. Mr. Salesman
>> dadaanin ka sa matatamis na salita. parang si Mr. Everything din kaya lang sya mas matindi mang-uto. yun bang tipong..“ang ganda ganda talaga ng mga mata mo..” o kaya“ang kinis kinis mo…flawless” o kaya “ang lambot ng mga kamay mo” at iba pang pang-uuto mapasagot ka lang.(grabe ehh noh..? lahat sinabi maging kayo lng??)

7. Mr. Good Dog
>> eto ang nakakatuwang manliligaw. kase payag syang magpaalipin. taga bitbit ng bag mo o kahit ng mga kaibigan mo. kahit magmuka syang buntot sa tuwing may gala kayo ng mga barkada mo. nagpapakitang gilas kung baga. pero pag sinagot mo na, for sure gaganti yan.

8. Mr. Anonymous(aus toh aa.)
>> motto nya ang “action speaks louder than words”. wala kang kaalam-alam, nanliligaw na pala. kaya pala ang bait-bait sayo. e akala mo mabait lang talaga.

9. Mr. Second chance
>> sya ang pinakamasugid mong manliligaw. kahit 100 times mong sabihing ayaw mo sa kanya at wala na syang pag-asa ang sasabihin nya pa rin, “Please give me a second chance”

10. Mr. Romantiko(galing ang saya nito..)
>> jologs ang mga paraan nya sa panliligaw. manghaharana, pakikisamahan mga barkada mo, liligawan parents mo at laging may dalang flowers and chocolates tuwing dadalaw. pero madalas nakakapagpakilig sya ng nililigawan nya dahil sa kanyang “malinis na hangarin”.

Posted by at 6:17 AM