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Saturday, October 18, 2008

"The most important ingredient for success is failure." I heard Billy Ray Cyrus say that for her daughter Miley on OPRAH today. In addition, he also said that "Every time you fail, you eliminate one way that won't work and therefore being one way closer to the one that will."

Yea. That's a quote that could make me see life positively.
Oh well. But it is really true, right?
We learn from the mistakes that we make. If we fail, we increase the possibilities of success. Everyone fears failure but the best thing for us to do is to embrace our mistakes and learn from them.

Sometimes quitting is just understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly.

"In your time, you have accomplished some nearly impossible tasks — so if today you can’t quite swing a home run, do not beat yourself up about it. You have done all that you can for now, and it might be time to take a break from climbing this particular mountain. Enjoy the view — and consider turning back if you think you just don’t have the energy or inspiration you need. Do not think of it as quitting. Think of it as understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly."


Yea. We need to move forward. The world is open for all of our dreams. It may take us quite some time to see the end of the tunnel but surely we'll get there.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

It's time for me to go..

Inside an imaginary space

only two people knew.

I was asked to stay.

I promised not to go.

But the darkness has completely subdue.

My shadow has now gone away.

Where did our spark go?

No more magic, no more light.

No more bittersweet time.

Never really knew that I’m alone.

Was everything just my imagination?

Colors turned black and gray.

I don’t wanna longer stay.

=c

-aprilmelodee-

09/30/08

Friday, June 27, 2008

CHANGE.

Made some changes on my blogspot blog which might be unnoticeable by people who regularly visit that blog because those posts were dated more than/almost a year ago. Char lng! Feeling! Okay. I know it's just me who visits my blog regularly. lol. Most people visit my blog by accident lol mistakenly clicked the link or maybe out of extreme boredom. lol

Actually, I published some works which were originally saved as drafts about a year ago and deleted some posts because i found out that some of them were corny written by an immature aprilmelodee, lol, considering that aprilmelodee is trying hard to be a mature one lately. :)

I've read a blog post, written last december 8, 2006, almost 2 years ago. Written by me of course. here it goes, quoted below, colored red:

"I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not"

"Someone told me that she hates me because i am this. She said that i'm childish, i easily cry, i'm too shy......
"This is me, this is what i love doing. This is the real me, if you hate me then go away....." This is what i want to say when she was telling me those things. But i haven't said this to her because she is my friend. She just want me to change.
But being me isn't bad. Right? I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.... "

Then another one, written last April 29,2007, more than a year ago. quoted, colored red:

"People judge me..."

"They keep telling things that would hurt me…then they would tend to laugh out loud or even get mad when they see me cry like a baby. Sometimes they give reasons just like that it was just a joke. Or maybe sometimes they tell me that I couldn’t just accept the fact. Bad sila! Why can’t they zip their mouths and stop telling things that would hurt people… why cant they accept me as me?

But mind you, sometimes it is good to listen on what other people say. Just try to reflect on what they have said. Maybe it can hurt a little bit but it would be something great when later you realize that their right. Sometimes, you also need to accept them... (you accept them and then they accept you! eh di mas ok ^_^)

I have tried it once.. and it worked… It made myself a way much better. Except from the fact that it made me better, it also make others happy for the good changes i have made..."

I discovered a change of insights!

2006, I stand my ground. I won't make a change because i believed that being me isn't bad and that
I would rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.

2007, accepted some comments. Made some change. :) Sabi ko pa "
sometimes it is good to listen on what other people say. Just try to reflect on what they have said. Maybe it can hurt a little bit but it would be something great when later you realize that their right. Sometimes, you also need to accept them... you accept them and then they accept you! eh di mas ok ^_^"

2008, um. I guess, i've changed, a little bit. That's my new years resolution this year. To change. Maturity. That's a promise. No more crying like a baby. No more shyness. No more "ulaw ko. hiya ako. i'm shy". I guess, i would still be an introvert, but being an introvert and being shy is not the same. Oh. :) Promise to myself, to my sisters who often call me autistic, to my parents who try to build up my confidence and to my friends who help me grow. This is a promise and i do believe that promises are not made to be broken. XD

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

^_^

At last! I'm in my fourth year in college! I'm a graduating student! *big grin*

Actually, I'm still praying not to fail any subject in my last two sems. Coz if i fail just a single subject, my dream of saying 'bye-bye school' within this school year would be a flop.

Ooowkay. The truth is, I don't really think that i can pass each of my subjects this sem. Ha! Reverse Psychology! LOL! But I'm hoping. :)