Walay kahadlok, walay kaguol

 Sa panahon na naay struggles, ayaw kahadlok, ayaw ka lose hope, ayaw pag worry, instead look up, kay ang Ginoo kanunay na nag uban kanimo.

Actually, last July 31, 2021, i gave birth to my first child. But for the first ten days of my baby, i was forbidden to take care of him. I was isolated in a covid isolation facility. Upon the mandatory swab result at the hospital, i got a positive result. No symptoms, no fever, no cough, i went to the hospital, not because i was sick, but just to gave birth. After that they isolated me, because i got covid. It was a tough time. I missed the first 10 days of my baby. Good thing my mama and my husband was there to take care of my little child. But then my mama got positive also and had to be isolated. My sister was there to take charge in behalf  mama. It was a little difficult for all of us. Everyone in the house had to be quarantined. Mama and i, since we got positive, we had to be isolated in a facility and other family members who got negative result still had to be home quarantined for 14 days.

Good thing we were asymptomatic, we were allowed to go out at the 10th day and was advised to continue the quarantine at home. 

Covid is real but God is greater.

Even though at tough times, i still get a positive realization why God allowed that to happen. For me, i was an independence training, and also a time for me to rest and prepare myself for motherhood. I only got the chance to see my baby through videocall. From feeding my baby to changing diapers to making the baby sleep at night - everything is new. They have sleepless nights at home because of the new baby. My sister said i might get postpartum anxiety if i was at home and maybe God just spared me from that. 

It was also an independence training. Of course after the 9 months of carrying the baby, the labor, the stitches, my body is at sore, i cant barely walk, because of my stitches and body aches. If i was at home, my mama would surely take care of me, but being alone in the facility, i had to take care of my self. Eat plenty, sleep early, take meds, pump milk because my breasts are also in sore. God is indeed an all knowing God and make all things work together for good, even though the enemy originally planned to harm me. 

I thank you God for everything. For all the discipline and training, i am blessed and forever grateful to be your little child. ♡