I don't like this kind of feeling.
Waiting. Hoping. Wanting.
I don't want to chase people. But i want you.
What should i do then?
Nothing? Just chill? Relax?
Somehow, it's too early to tell.
Perfect time will come.
But when?
Just be patient, April.
Lord, you know. But i trust your perfect timing.
And please Lord don't let me get attached to people not meant for me.
I just hate this feeling, crushing on someone.
It's okay. But don't do again what you did last time.
No more chasing people. Just no more.
Just wait. Wait on God's perfect time. Time will tell.
It will be always worth the wait. ♡
Saturday, December 28, 2019
Sunday, December 22, 2019
New Year, New Me 💖
Here in a milktea shop, taking a good cup of wintermelon milktea, trying to compose myself, relaxing, looking back to the things that happened for this whole year.
Few more days and it will be 2020. My supposed to be "marrying year", but it's not going to happen.
What's going to happen next year? All the previous plans in mind had vanished.
Now all i wanted is to be free. Free to love my self. Free to explore new things. Free to travel anywhere. Free to do things that I really want. Just free to be me.
I'm nervous and excited at the same time. 2020 will be a new year, celebrating a new me. Free and fearless me.
Lord, let Your will always be done in my life. I trust You for writing my life story. 💖
Thank You and I love You always Lord. 💖
Few more days and it will be 2020. My supposed to be "marrying year", but it's not going to happen.
What's going to happen next year? All the previous plans in mind had vanished.
Now all i wanted is to be free. Free to love my self. Free to explore new things. Free to travel anywhere. Free to do things that I really want. Just free to be me.
I'm nervous and excited at the same time. 2020 will be a new year, celebrating a new me. Free and fearless me.
Lord, let Your will always be done in my life. I trust You for writing my life story. 💖
Thank You and I love You always Lord. 💖
Thursday, December 12, 2019
My First Mountain Climb
Who would ever think i could climb the highest mountain?
I never knew my capabilities until i was there - at the top, seeing the clouds beneath the mountain. Seeing the sun so near, the beauty of God's creation. What a wonderful feeling it is!💖
At first i was hesitant. I have no experience in climbing mountains or even hiking.
But then all of a sudden, i told myself, why not try it? I told my self, "If God allows me to, then i will".💖
Then one sunday morning, the Pastor at church mentioned climbing Mt. Apo as an illustration. It was a sermon about Abraham sacrificing his son Isaac at the mountain. Then that was the sign, my 144 leader told me that it was a confirmation that God is allowing me to go.
I never make decisions on my own. I always ask God first and after God said yes, i paid my downpayment :) then a few minutes just after my downpayment was sent, an earthquake struck near Mt. Apo as the epicenter. Wow. JUST WOW. But I was not scared at all. It was just that my 144 leader told me not to continue my plan.
But i was unstoppable. I do really want to go. I made preparations. I did walking and jogging, and a little diet too. The organizer constantly monitored my training progress. 💪💪💪
He keeps me motivated every now and then. He believed that I can so I tried my best to believe in myself too.
Until that one week, then just a few days left, and a storm cancelled all their flights. Well i thought the whole trip wasn't meant to be. I was a little disappointed.
But then, i realized maybe God allowed the storm to happen so we can have a clear and beautiful view by the time we're up there.
And yes finally that day came! Papa was worried and i was almost not allowed to go. But i really wanted to go! We fought a little, but still he had to let me go.
The whole trip was worth it!💖
The climb was just so wonderful. Everyone was nice and friendly and i was just so happy. What a wonderful and unforgettable experience it is! 💖
Thank You Lord for allowing me to climb the Highest Mountain. To more mountains to climb and conquer! 💖💖💖
I never knew my capabilities until i was there - at the top, seeing the clouds beneath the mountain. Seeing the sun so near, the beauty of God's creation. What a wonderful feeling it is!💖
At first i was hesitant. I have no experience in climbing mountains or even hiking.
But then all of a sudden, i told myself, why not try it? I told my self, "If God allows me to, then i will".💖
Then one sunday morning, the Pastor at church mentioned climbing Mt. Apo as an illustration. It was a sermon about Abraham sacrificing his son Isaac at the mountain. Then that was the sign, my 144 leader told me that it was a confirmation that God is allowing me to go.
I never make decisions on my own. I always ask God first and after God said yes, i paid my downpayment :) then a few minutes just after my downpayment was sent, an earthquake struck near Mt. Apo as the epicenter. Wow. JUST WOW. But I was not scared at all. It was just that my 144 leader told me not to continue my plan.
But i was unstoppable. I do really want to go. I made preparations. I did walking and jogging, and a little diet too. The organizer constantly monitored my training progress. 💪💪💪
He keeps me motivated every now and then. He believed that I can so I tried my best to believe in myself too.
Until that one week, then just a few days left, and a storm cancelled all their flights. Well i thought the whole trip wasn't meant to be. I was a little disappointed.
But then, i realized maybe God allowed the storm to happen so we can have a clear and beautiful view by the time we're up there.
And yes finally that day came! Papa was worried and i was almost not allowed to go. But i really wanted to go! We fought a little, but still he had to let me go.
The whole trip was worth it!💖
The climb was just so wonderful. Everyone was nice and friendly and i was just so happy. What a wonderful and unforgettable experience it is! 💖
Thank You Lord for allowing me to climb the Highest Mountain. To more mountains to climb and conquer! 💖💖💖
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