Missing piece

Confused feelings. Both happy and sad but definitely free.

Sad coz someone whom i am with for 8 years is now seem like a stranger again.

Those bittersweet memories. I was deeply inloved with you back then. You knew that. You felt that. You witnessed how i fought my love for you. But it just seem like i was never the one meant for you.

We never matched. We were not the missing piece in our life puzzle that we first thought we were. 

We tried our best for us to fit that missing piece, but no matter how hard we try, we just failed.

Now, there's no more us. No more trying hard to fit it.

Let's just start over again the journey of finding that missing piece. 

R E S P O N S I B I L I T I E S

Responsibilites at work. Responsibilities at home. Responsibilities at church.

I just don't understand anymore. Or maybe, I am just overwhelmed with all these responsibilities that I have right now.

Well, as we grow older, our responsibilities grow as well. And now that I reached 30, i just felt overloaded. I just want to cry, take a rest, escape.  I want an indefinite leave for all these responsibilities, but just can't. But I don't mean quitting eh? Just leave of absence, just for a time, until all of these would sink in to me.

Maybe, God wants me to go out of my comfort zone and move on to another step of the ladder. 

Actually, though I am overwhelmed, I also feel blessed because not everyone is privileged to have these responsibilities that I have right now.

Boss-in-the-Making, Leader-in-the-Making, UnstoppableWoman-in-the-Making.

Not everyone have these life trainings that I have. I thank You Lord for all of these.

Ah, maybe, God is just shaking my nest, because He's preparing me to fly and soar high. I praise and glorify You Lord for everything. ♡

Just a Dream

I woke up from a dream..Its 3:45am..it was a happy dream yet i cried.. i cried because of too many what ifs..too many whys..too many questions running on my mind..yet the feeling was like real..a happy feeling..why was that just a dream?

But WHY HIM?

Why was that happening on my dream?

What does it mean?

What if he's the one God made for me?

What if my current relationship is not meant to be?

I actually dreamt of my highschool classmate giving me a ring with a diamond on it. He said sorry because we are both in a relationship, and i said sorry too..

during that time on my dream i told myself "so this is the feeling when someone loves you secretly " i can't contain what i felt..i was happy yet i also felt sorry for my self, sorry for him, sorry for my boyfriend.
I just cant understand my feeling actually.

Then i asked him "dba ur in a relationship with __________? Yes i even mentioned the name of his girlfriend (pag gising ko i searched on fb its weird coz its really the name of his girlfriend. How come i knew?)

But then he told me that they already broke up with that girl (his real gf) and he is in a relationship with a different girl (the name was not mentioned b1ut all i know is hilomon dw like me)

We talked for about an hour, we hugged, we were talking so close to each other. then i said thank you for the ring..then he was about to give me papers to keep..it was supposed to be a resibo of a property or a land title?

Then i woke up. I relaized that it was just a dream. But the details in my dream, even my feelings were still the same.

regrets..........

how i wish i could turn back time......how i wish i could undo some little things i did......=c

when happiness and pain collide....
That hurts the most....

Another Chance For Our Love :)

He asked me, "can i have your number again?"
I was thinking, should i give him my number again?
I promised to myself that 2013 will be a different year and i will forget everything happened last year, so i decided to give him my number and restart the friendship....

A few weeks later, i received a text from him, though his number wasn't saved on my phone, i knew it was him, but i pretended that i forgot his number and replied "who's this? your number wasn't on my contact list." He didn't reply. But the next day after work, 4pm when he was about to off from work, he told "ako yun" and I said pretending again "ang unsa?" "ang nagtext ba kagabi" he said, and i replied "ah okay," pretending that i never really cared.

He's cute. I know he likes me a lot. I know I can make him smile even on the simplest things i do. He makes me smile also. Just seeing him happy makes me smile.

Feb. 3, before I slept, I asked God "Lord, is it okay if i am going to be friends with him?" He replied first thing in the morning, February 4, "Whatever you have in mind, do it, for God is with you." that made me smile of course

Daily Devotional :)

 "For this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments and His commandments are not burdensome." - 1 John 5:3

      That's my rhema for today. :) well, i have been quite serious doing my devotional everyday for quite a time. and I try not to skip a single day without reading the Bible. I don't know but it makes me feel incomplete when i don't read the Bible daily. 

      Reading the Bible is usually one of the things i do every early in the morning. It makes my day complete -- oh, not just complete, it makes my day perfect! :) that even at night, when i'm about to sleep, i still have this big smile on my face, thankful for the awesomely perfect day, guided by God's Word. 

IT'S NOT ABOUT RELIGION

     When Pacman lost the fight today, I've read and heard a lot of people blaming Pacman's change of religious affiliation. From facebook statuses, to the people in the streets to the news on tv, and on the a.m. radio stations. - yes maybe a lot of people is just really upset with this Pacman's defeat. 

     Pacman lost the game. not because he changed his religion, but because winning the game isn't intended for him. Simple as that. He lost. That's it. Losing and failing is just a part of life.

Religious affiliation is definitely not the issue. and God's will and purpose is not to be questioned. 

9 love tips - crazy little thing called love

Tip 1: look at the stars in the sky, connect the stars with youir fingers to make the name of someone you love.

Tip 2: concentrate and look at the one you love, try to hipnotize him to do what you want. If he acts as yoiu ordered, it means that he is your soul mate.

Tip 3: give a gift to someone anonymously just for the person to know that someone has a crush on him.

tip 7: let love inspire you. The power of love shall make you smarter, prettier and better in every way then that person will finally notice you..

When People Say I Look Like 14

Do you think it is a compliment when people say you look younger than your age?

Yes, maybe it is. People get happy when they are told this such words.

Person 1: How old are you?
Person 2: 31.
Person 1: Oh, I thought you're just 24.
Person 2: Really? Thanks! :D
That is the usual situation.

But as for me, I don't really think it is a compliment. Sometimes, I find it insulting.

I'm already 23, and last week, a guy was little bit shocked when I said to him that I'm already this old. He told me he thought I was 14.

I'm actually used to it when people say I look young. But there comes a time that I tend to ask myself, "What's really the matter?" Is it because of my height? Or my voice? Or the way I dress myself? The way I talk and walk? The way i laugh? The way I speak? The way I think? The way I decide? What?

I usually don't care what other people think of me, but it's starting to bother me. I'm 23 and when that person said "I thought you're just 14" - does that mean I dress, speak, think, decide like a 14-yr-old girl also?

Does that mean I'm retarded??? Like 9 years behind???

Insulting, right? and I definitely don't like it.

It's a great challenge for me. Now it's time for the big change. WATCH ME.

Remember that spending time with God is not about ritual, but relationship :)

 

1. Remember that spending time with God is not about ritual, but relationship
When you and I were born again, we entered into a relationship with Almighty God. He is not only our God, he is our Heavenly Father. We have freedom before Him, and access to His throne. We don’t have to be afraid of Him. Rituals might be burdensome, but relationships with loved ones rarely are. Spending time with one that you love is exciting and life–changing – and that’s how your daily time with your Father God should be.

2. Establish a specific time every day when you will spend time with the Lord.
Don’t you find that what gets scheduled usually gets done? I do. Find a time that works with your lifestyle and your family demands, then stick to it! Make it a top priority. That’s how habits are developed. Persevere even when you are tired, and don’t feel like it. Remember, we’d never get anything accomplished if we lived by our feelings alone!

3. Minimize your interruptions.
 When you’re spending time with God, give Him all of your attention. Turn off the telephone and the television. Find a nice, quiet, cozy spot where you are comfortable. If you have children, teach them to respect your privacy during this time, and explain to them that this is your time with God. Then they will learn the importance of a daily quiet time, and you’ll reinforce its importance in their eyes, too. Pray that they will follow your example, and encourage them to do so.

4. Choose a Bible version and a Bible-reading plan.
This is so important – especially for new Christians. Ask a pastor or friend to help you select a good translation. I like the New International Version or the New Living Translation. Doing a little research to find the right translation for you will help you in the long run. Then get a reading plan. Don’t just open the Bible and randomly skip around. Again, ask a pastor or a friend to help you select a reading plan if you’re not sure. Balance your reading between the Old and New Testaments. The Old Testament is rich in history and knowledge – and the New Testament presents the story of Christ and the birth of the church. Both are so valuable – and reading one will help you understand the other.

5. Interact as you read.
The Bible is a living book, written by a living God. As the Holy Spirit to give you understanding, wisdom and revelation as you read. Read the Bible as if it were a love letter, because it is – it is God’s love letter to you! Pray as you go. Take notes, and don’t be afraid to mark scriptures in your Bible itself. Interact with your Bible, and ask God to use it to change your heart and life.
All of these things are important, but the most important thing you can do is to begin – and that you can do today!


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